I’m not perfect. I make mistakes. I feel guilty. I am human. I’ve had a hard life. I’ve had a great life. I’ve hurt people’s feelings unintentionally. I’m sorry for that. I’ve made people laugh uncontrollably. I’d love to do that again. This is my life.
Let me let you in on a secret about me. I’m real. Things haven’t been the same for me the past couple years. It might have been everything leading up to this that has caused it. Sickness, death, life, pain, sorrow. All of it. It’s made me a different person inside. I used to blog a lot. I used to laugh a lot. I used to get up from bed happy and sprightly. But a lot has changed. I’m fighting that bad feeling. Not fighting change because that’s what’s made me, me. I just need to look forward, be happy with what God gives me. Even if it is bad, because it teaches me lessons and that life needs lessons. Good, because it teaches me to live life to the fullest.
If you’re still with me, I thank you. I thank you for following me on my journey.
Every year, we make it a tradition to go down to the downtown waterfront to take photos at the cherry blossoms. I thank God for the blossoms, for the beautiful city, for my wonderful family. Spring is here to tell us that it’s time to grow again. To spread your wings and fly and make life worth living.
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I am thankful that you’re real. Honest emotion is hard to come by…most people hide behind a mask and it’s refreshing to find someone who really wears their heart on their sleeve – not just says they do. You’re a wonderful person inside and out, troubled or joyous, every part of you is loved.
Still here & still lovin’ on ALL of you!!! XOXO Beautiful pics (as always!) XOXO
Beautiful post & pics my dear. Just remember: there is no pit so deep that God is not deeper still.
Life has a funny way of humbling us, bringing us to our knees. It’s these times why we often ask God, “why me:? We ought to be saying “what would you have me do next Lord”? Only then can he pick us up and carry us through each obstacle…all the while, loving us. God bless you, your sorrow and your joys! Much respect for what you do and who you are and will become.
I never thought you were perfect, I always thought of you as the embodiment of a genuine human being, an amazingly beautiful and kind mother, a passionate friend, sister and wife, and a talented and generous, giving photographer. I’ve watched you struggle over the past few years from a distance, and secretly wished I had a magic want to help you heal and make your dreams come true. Even through it all, you push past the tears and always come away like a beam of light. I love who you are, Maricar, and you are an inspiration! I hope you know how many people truly love and honestly adore you. <3